Could it be? Could it be that I lost my focus? If only for a fleeting moment did I let life dictate how far that I could make it? First and foremost, let me apologize to my audience. Life sometimes sends us all through twists and turns and things happen that we cannot prepare for. There are times when we are flying high in life, then turbulence happens in the process of us trying to coast at 50,000 feet. Allow me to explain.
I have heard it said that the only thing constant in this life is change. I have found out over the past 6 months that this theory is extremely accurate. I came into this year with very high ambitions to be consistent in my writing, to become a professional blogger, and to make a difference in the lives of my readers. As I begin to pour endless amounts of energy into my craft, my laser focus was blurred as 3 major events happened that shook my world consecutively. In March of this year my father passed away, in June I had a health scare that sent me to the hospital, and in July I was laid off from my job.
From July 2nd until September 2018, I went into a sort of hibernation from writing. Life became extremely difficult. As I continued to cope with the emotional issues of losing my dad, along with comforting my mom and family, I couldn’t write. As financial pressures mounted from being without a job for the first time in my life, I was constantly fighting bouts of anxiety and depression. I felt so inadequate as a husband, a father, and provider. Have you ever been there?
In the process of stressing over life, I was not taking proper care of myself and ended up in the hospital. My heart was beating at levels it had never beat before. This was due to a combination of stress, too much caffeine, and an improper diet. I was hard pressed to find a job quickly to minimize the impact of sudden unemployment on my family. I was blessed to find a job quickly, while starting class to gain my insurance license. As life continued to happen, I still hid from my passion of writing and replaced it with the distraction of busyness.
Training for a new career, while in class at the same time is enough to stretch any person’s mental capacity and creativity. Just the thought of writing this past summer scared me. It is amazing how as writers we may feel as if we loose our audience because life temporarily takes us in a different direction. Things are starting to settle back down as several adjustments have been made in my life. These situations build character, integrity, as well as mental and emotional toughness.
After having time to reflect and adjust to this thing we call life, I just want to apologize for my hiatus in writing. I truly love and appreciate you as my reader and I am sorry to neglect you. I am happy to report that one of my blog posts called “Capture The Magic Moments” was chosen to be published in a short stories collection book. I have been blessed, I have been humbled, and I am grateful. Thank you for hanging in there with me through this transition.
In conclusion, I have every intention to regain my consistency in blogging. Please accept my apology and pray for me, and I will pray for you. Never be afraid to fly high in this life, just remember that a little turbulence is normal as conditions change. My tagline as Vintage Retroman is “Never let life dictate how far you can make it.” If we’re honest, life can be challenging at times. Do your best to hang on in turbulence, because it’s short lived. “And this too shall pass” – V.R.